I'm totally puzzled tonite. There are SO many things that I want to talk about. I've written about 4 different topics in this one blog entry and I've erased each and every one of them. My first topic was about how I was longing for something (one..?) - but I cant write about that... it would only cause trouble. The second is that I'm worried... Again, I shouldn't write about that because it might cause unnecessary grief. The third was about my day today (which I'll get to... just not right away.) The fourth was about silly movie trailers... go figure.
So let's just take this blog entry in stride and hope, when all is said and done, that I write something where at the end of which, you dont go "huh?".
First of all, let's bring up my favourite list again.. my 'to do' list....
1. Buy a file cabinet for all of my notes and sort out my notes into the cabinet.
2. Get my OmegaCAM up and running again (It's EVER so close now! =D )
3. Get my new website finished and posted.
4. Set up my eBay account (username: Cow_Bell) to be able to start selling.
5. Call Jessica - I missed calling her today =( 6. Do to the back grass what I did to the front grass...
7. Call Jessica - crossed off then readded... why? if you have to ask me, then u obviously dont know me. =P
Alright - I've been a fart lately. I went out once yesterday to look for a job. Mega Wraps looks promising, although only for a weekend position. That's ALL I've done lately. I'm fully taking advantage of this magical concept of a 4 month long summer break.. but I can fully guarantee that it's gonna kill me... Make me a lazy lil mofo..
wait... I already am a lazy lil mofo..
moving on...
My Day. What did I do today. I was going to continue my hunt for a job today, but I didn't end up doing that. Instead I lazed around here with a headache, and just wasted yet another day away. Actually, no.. I did laundry. I now have clean clothes to wear.
Then Erin called me. "I haven't talked to you for so long! It's like you've gone into hiding!!!" Well, she's not entirely wrong. I have. What have I been hiding from? We'll save that for another post.
Anyway, I finished on the phone with her and then Christa calls to set up our plans for tonite. Christa, Ferhanna, and myself are supposed to go see XMen2 tonite. Great flick, by the way. Christa picked me up and the three of us made our way to AMC, where I had this urge... And please let me know if I'm the ONLY one who has thought about it.. My urge was an uncanny need to see the face behind the dude always doing those voice-overs for movie trailers. You know the guy I'm talking about. The one that always says "In a time where..." or "In a land where..." at the start of all those trailers? (Side note - why is it always "in a time" or "in a land"? why is it never "in a butcher shop", or "in a cremation center"? Yes, I know. I'm sick. moving right along.....) Yes, my need to see this guy's face has brought me to the internet, but with no avail.
I wanna know why it's HIM...
How did HE get the job???
Is he related to Mr. MoviePhone???
Anyway, after the previews, my mind starts to wander.
Jessica. Oye..
Sweetheart, I know you read this, and all I've got to say is that it isn't me who brings out a side of you which doesn't feel a need to cry. (www.love_indifference_hate.blogspot.com). But I'm very thankful that you see me that way. You have been there for me so often. And all I can do is promise to be there for you. I was there before your slump.. I'm there for you now, and I'll be there with you when you come out of it.
Anyway, she has been a very large topic among what is going on inside of my head lately. Even tonite while I was sitting in the movie theater, I found myself looking for an answer as to why I was thinking more about her than the actual movie. Did I come to an answer?
No. Not to a realistic one at least. So I will keep searching.
it is now 2 hours since I started writing this.... why has it taken so long for me to do it? I dont know..
anyway, after the movie we went to TimHortons (corner of Burnhamthorpe and CreditView.. the Woodlands hangout, or so it seems.) And met up with a bunch of people from my old highschool - from last year, and many years ago. Joyce Lee and Jessica Tuazon. Jess I've known forever - since Kindergarten as a matter of fact! and then there's Joyce, who is just my crazy lil cutie with dimples that'd drive any guy bonkers.. lol (Joyce, if you ever read this, face it... it's true. hehehe =P) Ahh.. it was good to catch up with the two of them - I haven't talked to either one for such a long time.
We ran into Kevin Richards too, but he didn't really acknowledge our existence, so not much to report there. lol
Along with a bunch of other Woodlanders who dont really mean much to me.
After that I was dropped off at home and that's where I came online only to be greeted by...... nobody, actually.. it was 12:30, and not one person was online. it was tres weird.
I was hoping to talk to Julia tonite... our last conversation has been playing over and over in my head. I'm very disappointed that it got to the point that it did, but we did get a great deal off of our chests.. me, especially..
Julia, if you ever read this, I'm not sorry for anything that was said, just as you shouldn't be either, but I am sorry with how I came across. If I made you feel small in any way, I am deeply sorry. I should have found a way to communicate with you that was a little less destructive.
Anyway, I think I managed to get out everything I wanted to tonite..
oh, one more thing...
invasion of privacy
n : the wrongful intrusion by individuals into one's personal belongings or space.
Until next time......
*fade to black*
:: Eldorado ::
Thursday, May 08, 2003 ::
4:19:00 AM
