::: Classic Blog Post from the Past :::
Originally posted on Friday, May 02, 2003 :: 2:55:31 AM
Song of choice: Everybody Hurts - REM... - Yes, I know I've already chosen this song.. but it's soooooooo good, I had to post it again...
This post might offend some people, but I assure you that this isn't intended to point fingers at someone. There are probably a dozen of you out there who, after reading this post, will say "he was talking about me!!! I'm so gonna kick his ass!". But do you want to know something? You're only going to think that because everyone is guilty of what I am about to talk about. You, me, everyone. You've either done this to someone, or had someone do this to you. So just sit back, grab a coke, and read on.
Think of the people you know. How many of them are involved in some sort of romantic relationship?
How many of them are feeling TRUE LOVE?
How many of them have EVER felt true love?
I am reminded of something I read many years ago. "True love is about giving". It really isn't about what you get from the other person, but about what you are willing to give - and more importantly, what you are READY to give - to the other individual involved.
And as a slight disclaimer, no I'm not an expert in true love. I am not someone who knows a little but pretends to know all there is to know. I am merely sharing my thoughts, opinions, observations, and experiences through an over-generalized, omni-directional (stupid tech terminology), blog entry.
Whenever asked, I would say that love is a feeling that cant be explained. Why? Because love is completely subjective. It is based on personal feelings that no other person can completely understand. Sure, people can relate to aspects of another's love, but one can never completely understand another's love. Love is UNCONDITIONAL.
But even through all of this, there is one tiny thing that I cant bring myself to understand - and I, myself, am guilty of this as well. How can someone care so much, feel so much, do so much, for someone who has, time and time again, treated them poorly, cold-heartedly, and unfairly?
I often think to myself that some things just weren't meant to be, and want to beg the other person to just "let it go. suck it up. move on". even though I have never once told someone to "let it go." or to "suck it up." why? because a) this would be mean and rather narrow-minded, and I dont want to judge others in this way cuz i dont know how they really feel. And b) I have wanted to make the same plea to myself on more than one occasion. But my question.. my 'puzzlement'.. is WHY cant we do this? Why is it so human to love what we want to see instead of what we actually see???
Say person A feels unappreciated, angry, and upset at person Z. A tries to get over Z... time goes by.. and no matter what A tries, they JUST CANT DO IT. There is something inside A that cant stop caring.. something that wont allow them to say 'no' to person Z.
Why is it that one single phonecall or instant message from Z to A, even after all the pain has been inflicted, bring a smile to A's face? "A" would still jump at the chance to hear their voice, see their face, or contact them from a distance by means of which isn't exactly direct.. ALL to just get something from this other person. A reaction. Anything.
I've done it before. You have too. Email surveys, and answers to the infamous "have you ever fallen in love" question are a gold mine to find this sort of behaviour.
But what is this feeling that controls our poor souls? What did we ever do to the cosmos to deserve this? I can see the Ying, but where is my Yang? (ok, please dont quote that line directly out of context.. even though I'm sure half of you will).
I'm sure all of you see my point.. We are (generally) good people. People are generally good souls.
Is it our search for the application of the pleasure principle? Is it because we think that relationships are needed to live a good life, and we think that if we can falsely conjure up something that is close to reality, then that's just "good enough for now" ?
Someone please answer this for me...
Until next time.........
*fade to black*
:: Eldorado ::
Thursday, February 26, 2004 ::
1:53:00 AM
