Wednesday, December 22, 2004 :: 9:26:00 PM

I've had the worst semester I've ever experienced. So much so that if the residence powers that be check my marks (and care) they could boot me....

on a lighter note, I went to the doctor yesterday. Something is wrong with me - I know it is. I know my random daydreams, my extremely...

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...short attention span, my extreme difficulty to formulate thoughts when speaking... my complete lack of effort, and incredibly low feeling of self worth... all of these point to something. I've experienced them for a long time, and I think it's about time to find out what it is.

Last year should have been my wake up call. When I missed those two weeks of school, had the "unidentified viral infection in my blood" (tell me that wouldn't scare the shit out of you if you heard your doctor tell you that), extreme dizzyness, and complete non-desire to eat.... that should have been my wake up call. Instead of focusing on getting back to my usual, "good" self, I should have been finding out why all of that happened at once.

I'm sure all of you who know me have experienced my dazed looks, my rough sentences...

That's why I went to the doctor yesterday. I told him my concerns, and he did a bunch of tests on me. I had to give blood, again... A lot of blood, again... My results should come in tomorrow morning. I'm doing this to rule out any physical problems... After this, it should tell my doc whether the problem is in my body, or my mind.. once we figure that out, we will act accordingly...

Until next time.......
*fade to black*

:: Eldorado ::